evidently i get distracted way too easily.

i have broken so many study patterns. etc.
i have wasted so much time.
i complain too much.
i ‘don’t stress’ but i do.
my ocd is getting worse.
i can’t sleep because i’m constantly worrying or overthinking.
i have the worst case of negative thinking and anxiety attacks.
i’m always tired.
i don’t feel prepared at all for five units of exams next week. then two the week after.
i always feel terrible.

the list could go on forever, and i know exams or the hsc isn’t everything or the be all end all, but for some reason, i feel like i’ve disappointed a lot of my teachers.

frick.

and i’m sorry tumblr-people for posting so much over the past week, and for taking out my frustration on tumblr.

i will go away and focus now.
and stop disappointing people.
and stop disappointing myself.
i’ve worked too hard for thirteen years of schooling to disappoint.

. send any complaints to my formspring .

i’m sorry for wasting everybody’s time, and when i return after november 11, i will be out of my cocoon, and be a butterfly, and will cease posting about exam anxiety and all that crap, and i’ll finally get to complete my post-hsc to-do lists, and waste my life away.

</rant> </distraction>

<concentration> <focus> <completing the next half of hsc exams> <winning>

Oct

28

2009

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